All is not lost.
I've decided that I do believe in god, though he does not have a name. I will never discuss his nature nor impose him on others. I'm not even sure if he is a he... though I am equally certain that he is not a she. I do not have a personal relationship with him and am confident that I never will. I know deep in my heart that he does not exist.
I promise to worship him blindly and from a great distance only after death, where we can finally be alone.