Stayed home sick today. The boy has had an infection, and now me.
I am having very conflicted and contradictory feelings lately. Riding my bike again - that's how I can tell. My head is filled with two competing sets of chaos, each with surprising reservoirs of resources.
There's a tremendous bargain you must strike at times to just be civil, decent. You do it and you tell yourself it's for the best and that maybe you accrue some compound spiritual capital, but in time you act the other way and tell yourself a very similar thing and barely notice.