It might not be a great idea to write here now. I am at the end of a very long day, filled with frustrations and disappointments, some work-related. Everything will work out, I'm told. It is best to only want things obliquely. Too much passion to do anything directly and well is suspect, especially from somebody as old as me.
Being old is a disgrace.
If you want to glimpse how disgraceful being old is, and you are past a certain age, then express some outrage or disgust. It doesn't even matter what at, it can be anything, but it is of particular interest to lash out at something that is perceived to represent youth in its current form. Even the things they claim to hate - they will not suffer you hating those things also.
I'm no longer talking about work, by the way, but I'm glad I said something about it earlier - busy, long day, etc.
I know you care.
Back to the indignity of aging... youths will not permit you much without openly regarding it and you as disgusting - sex, anger, passion, being reckless, making poor choices. To enjoy again any of the shameful and sloppy mistakes you made abundantly when young... at this age... you will get a glimpse into how much the young casually dictate to the old what behavior should be. The unstated expectations are tremendous. For all of their youthful energy rebelling against being told what to do, just look and look very carefully, you will see the maelstrom of entitlement and hypocrisy.
They can not possibly stop themselves.
So, use your money to fuck a few of them at a time. Never let them forget why they hate you.
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